Slacker!

MAN! Im such a slacker! With everything in life! LOL Losing weight is my main issue right now. I know I need to…its motivation. I can’t seem to get any……

My hubby has been home. And I hate doing anything while he’s home. He makes fun of me. Makes fun of me when I clean, makes fun of me when exercise…etc. So needless to say much of anything around here has gets done while he’s home. Its not a mean putting me down kind of making fun of me. Apparently I get REALLY into what I’m doing and I start humming or singing to myself when I clean…and he says I make funny faces while I exercise LOL I probably do…oh well. It happens…

You should DEFINATLY see my house…its a major mess. We just got a “new” couch and loveseat that someone was giving away on freecycle. They are UGLY so I will have to find a blanket or something to throw over them, BUT they are in good shape. Better then ours was.  We were given a sectional when we moved here by my cousin and it was falling apart when we got it…and well its in worse shape now.  The sectional is one of those that is in peices. So it can be seperated. So yeah…now we arent sure what do with it. LOL We got the “new” things put where we want them, and the sectional is along another wall, and the corner peice to that is just sitting between my kitchen and living room…just sitting there…I THINK i MIGHT move that to the bedroom today. I doubt it though…..

The kids twin bed is in my living room still…along with every last one of their toys because we FINALLY started to get their room done. Got all the walls pulled down. YAY! All we have to do now is come up with the money to buy the flooring, sheetrock and paint and get it all put up. We have the 2×4’s to put up so no problems there.  I’m just excited that something is FINALLY getting done. Well, WAS getting done. We have $15 in the bank so it might be awhile before anything else gets done….*sigh*

I guess I’m not the only slacker in my house…We’ve been here almost 2 years and just now really got started on getting the room done. LOL  Its not like I could go in there and do it by myself. I’m clueless when it comes to construction type stuff.

Ok, I think im done….not sure what the point of this blog was…just boredom I guess….Oh well

*sigh*

Well nothing new with the working out….hasn’t been happening. Michael has been home……

He got laid off! Luckily its only temporary though. Will go back in June or July sometime I think is what he said. They are doing some major reconstruction to the building he’s working in. Adding a whole new department. Which will be good, will bring in over 100 new jobs to the area. BUT him being laid off when we are already behind on bills because of them only working them 2 – 3 days a week is really going to make life harder for us. We did however go apply for food stamps and medicaid for the kids. REALLY hated doing it, but we atleast need the kids with some kind of insurance while he’s off.  That is the main thing we are worried about. My dad is a big hunter so if we absolutely need to we are covered with the meat….and luckily we’ve been smart enough to stock up on groceries when we were able to. So I think with what he’ll get with unemployment we will be alright. *fingers crossed*

The place we got the car called yesterday. We are two payments behind. We had to go to one of those damn buy here pay here places to get it so we make bi weekly payments. (had to do what we had to do at the time. otherwise we wouldnt have gone there) But yeah, they called yesterday…letting us know that we are behind. Like we didn’t already know.  AND they asked about us getting our taxes back. UGH….luckily they just left a message because he had the phone turned off so if ppl did call it wouldnt use all his minutes. I wonder how long they will let us go before they say something about coming and getting the damn thing. We really don’t have any money to pay it right now. Less then$100 in the bank…..

Oh yeah, with the taxes….we aren’t getting ANYTHING back. NADA!! Damn me for wanting to try to go to school…. We were supposed to get just under $7,000 back. But didn’t get squat because the place I got my loans from decided they wanted the rest of their money first. SOOO, Michael filed a injured spouse thing the other day so we are HOPING HOPING HOPING that we will get something with that. Of course that will take about 11 weeks, so by then we could lose everything…HAHAHAHAHAHA not really. Our house is fully and completely payed for. Even if it is falling down around us…its payed for. LOL

Anyway, I think I’m done venting…LOL

UGGHHH

WOW! I am looking for new clothes…just looking and I’m finding that everything I like is either a junior or a small womans…what is up with that!?!?

I tend to have a sort of “edgy” style as my mother likes to describe it. I don’t think its so edgy. I was going through my clothes after I had my son and ended up getting rid of most of my clothes because my husband kept making the comment “Your a mother now, should you really dress like that” Which at the time I thought he was right. But you know what, how does a mother REALLY dress. Is it written down in a “mothers bible” somewhere that everyone woman with children has to dress a certain way or else?? Because if so I missed it.

The past few months I’ve been hanging out with friends…yes I said friends…I actually have friends…and I’m slowly realizing that I have lost myself since being with my husband and having my children. My husband is 10yrs older then I am, and he’s such a bummer a lot of times. I want to go out and do stuff, even if it is just taking the kiddos to the park. But he would rather sit and chill at home. Which I completely understand that he works all week and just wants to relax at home…BUT COME ON!!! LOL

Im finding myself…and a lot of times I wonder where I ever went, because I’m a lot of fun. HAHAHAHAHAHA  I know I will never be who I was before my kids and getting married, because my priorities have definatly changed since then, but getting back down to what makes me happy and showing who I REALLY am again…that means a lot to me. I think thats a lot of why I’m so unappy a lot of the times.  I’m unable to be who I want to be. I feel sometimes that my husband has…I don’t know….made me change in a way I guess. He was totally against what I done and who I hung out with. He NEVER told me to stop being friends with my friends…but I think it was all the comments he made about them that made me question who they were.  We’ve been together for 6 years and Im at the point now where if he makes ANY comments about my friends I just tell him to shut up. LOL I don’t really care what he thinks anymore. Is that sad or what?

Anyway, back to looking at clothes I go…not real sure why I wrote this. LOL I probably won’t write tonight about the exercise….just cuz I wrote this…but who knows…MAYBE!!!

Work it off….

Well, I haven’t done anything besides eat over the last week, with the holidays and everything.  Besides all that hubby has been home and he thinks its funny to stand there and make fun of me while I exercise…so I just dont. So I just blew it off for the past week. I know I know..shame on me. But I did…

I did do them tonight…and surprisingly didn’t need to stop once!!! I’m proud of myself. Expecially since I’ve had a really awful chest cough and sore throat for the past few days. I will probably be sore tomorrow though LOL….my legs are still shaking a tad bit. One of these days I will be able to do them without all this complaining.

Work it Off Day 2

Well….I did do my exercise today!! YAY….I almost talked myself out of it…cuz my legs are still very sore from yesterday. I feel like such a weakling by saying that. But its true. HAHA. I was warned that she would kick my ass….and that she is.

The cardio is what is kicking my ass the most though. Other then that Im not having a problem actually doing it. Just hurts like hell. LOL BUT hey I guess thats when you know its working huh?

I didn’t weigh myself today. Didn’t figure there would be any change and was kind of afraid to see it more then it was yesterday. That always scares me.  A friend suggested I measure myself…and atleast write it down for myself to see…because thats where it will really count. But I can’t find my darn measuring tape. These kids I swear…..HAHA

Anyway…I gotta get some more cleaning done, wrap some presents, and eventually take a shower and head to bed. Hopefully hubby is home by then….the roads are super slick and they are just getting worse the rain/ice thats coming down still.

Work it Off Day 1

I joined Tupperware and have recieved my kit already!!! YAYY!!! I am excited about it. I have already had things bought from the kit! LOL WOOT WOOT! Here is m link  HTTP://www.my2.tupperware.com/ambkeb check it out…you will like what you see…I promise. LOL

To go with where I got the title…..

I am tired of looking at myself. I know Im not “fat”…but the way my body looks…well…it bothers me. I am short 5ft 3in. BARELY….and I’ve always been small. When I met my husband I weighed just barely over 100lbs. YES….I was only 18yrs old…but still. LOL I got pregnant with my son who is now 4 and gained almost 70lbs. I lost all but 40lbs. I was happy weighing around 130lbs. I was wearing size 7s give or take…and I was happy….I didn’t have any “rolling balls of fat” all over my body like I do now. I got pregnant with my daughter and was 158lbs when I delivered here. I lost…8lbs…thats it. Ive been between 150-155….can not seem to get any less then 150. She is 2 years old now and I’ve been this weight the entire time. Bumbed about it.

Now I have tried to lose it. Before we moved to boonies me and friend went out EVERY morning and jogged together for almost an hour. Then in the evenings after the kiddos went to sleep I exercised to a dvd a friend gave me. I was doing that for about 6 months before we moved here and everything just stopped. I have no where to walk, no one to walk with…and just didnt feel like exercising. So I didnt.

Well…about a month ago I said…screw this…Im FINALLY ready to do something about myweight. SO yes…i did the stupid thing and bought myself a bottle of Stackers. I used them in High School when I was working full time, trying to go to school full time and take care of my little sister. I needed the energy. And on top of that…Ive been anemic for as long as I can remember, and have been told by drs that it could effect my energy level if I don’t eat like im supposed to and dont take my pills.  So I started the stackers again. Because…well, I’ll be the first to admit…I dont eat right and I dont take my pills…havent for a really long time.  I know I know…dont’ say it.

Anyway…a month of taking the pills…Im down to 140lbs even!!! I decided last week that I was done with the stackers…I am going to do this the right way. SO I went on the search of a really good exercise. I was given a taebo dvd by a friend. I tried it….I couldnt keep up!!! Even the beginners part….not real good for someone who doesnt get off her ass very often. LOL

Well…another friend suggested Jillian Michaels. So I found her DVD…at walmart on sale non the less…woot woot! So I bought it and my first time was this evening! Boy did she kick my ass….but I kept up! I only took one break…so Im proud of myself….and hurting….but I feel good about this. I feel like I CAN do this and get back to what I want to weigh…I only want to be about 125lbs. So not to much left to go.

I decided to write this so I could show the world what Im doing to lose weight. Im also hoping that writing this down for people to read will help me keep with it.  So please….show me some encouragment. LOL And if you want….lets do this together!!

Im going to take my hurting body and soak in a warm bath…then take it to bed.  I do apologize that this is long…ill try to keep it short from now on. LOL

Hello world!

Wow! My first blog….Exciting!!

So as you may soon relize, Im not much of a blogger….or writer for that matter. But good luck in keeping up with what I have to say…HAHA

I guess to start…Ill tell you that I started this blog mainly to keep myself busy and to make it look like im doing something when my husband is home. My husband is one of those people that just roll their eyes when you even kind of bring up that you really can make a little bit of money online. So my trying to make money online is a joke to him.

So I sit here, looking busy as he rolls his eyes and makes fun of the fact that Im “working”…and yes he usually does the little quotation fingers when he says it to. He is, most definatly, a dork.

Well, thats it for now. I may get bored a little later and attempt to keep my mind from getting to busy with my own thoughts.

~Have Fun~